The drinking bird, I know not his name,
he speaks to me, I now feel insane.
A question asked, "How are you today?"
"Fine, I suppose," was all I could say.
"That sounds dandy," the bird continued,
"I'll drink to that and bid you adieu."
Thought to myself, what a pleasant bird,
speaking so well, how very absurd.
Down from my fan, a monkey swings by,
"How could this be?" I wonder and sigh.
"How do you do?" he frantically asks.
"Rather busy," I look at my tasks.
Quick as he came, the monkey was gone,
then from behind, there came a sweet song.
Turning around, to find what it was,
I discovered, what made all the fuss.
A wooden cat,
light myself on fire
hope for the best
grow tired
lay down to rest
drown in the flame
I am stuck
not insane
down on my luck
awake in cold sweat
body shaking
cannot forget
the heart breaking
light myself on fire
is this a dream
light myself on fire
this is not me
hope for the best
walk down a road
hope for the best
there I explode
grow tired
counting sheep
grow tired
eternal sleep
lay down to rest
my head is clear
lay down to rest
the end is near
five thirty-six am
The sun is peaking over the mountaintops, dripping golden light over the valley that they stand guard. I'm sitting outside, smoking a cigarette as I stare at the day rolling in. I haven't been sleeping. I try and find new ways to keep myself busy. It's only at dawn that I find myself able to relax.
six thirteen am
Today is gonna be hectic, I can feel it in the air. The sparse clouds in the distance wreak of stormy weather. I finish my smoke as I head inside. Walking into the kitchen, I hear the dogs rustling in their sleep. After the sun rises up high enough for it to be bright inside without lights I make a cup of tea.
It's only at night,
my shadow bending left and right,
that I need some light
to help with my sight
in the dark.
It's only during the day,
when all the clouds are gray,
I hear myself say
I hope these fellas stay
for awhile.
It's only around noon,
when I'm wishing for the moon,
I start feeling a loon
it should be coming out soon
but not quite.
It's only when I'm dying,
that I realize they're crying,
with gasping breaths, some are sighing,
everyone knows that there's no buying
more time.
Lock myself in
for protection.
Holding on dearly
to my blue pen.
It bleeds life
into these pages
always masking
my fears and my rages.
I will confine
myself in the book.
Begin to lose myself,
wait, look.
Here I am,
the same young man
my body gone
inside my little blue pen
and my thoughts
and my dreams are these pages.